Freedom

"Ruin my life, the plans I have made.
Ruin desires for my own selfish gain.
Destroy the idols that have taken your place, 
till it's you alone I live for,
You alone I live for."








I do love this song. It has great meaning and depth. It's word "Ruin" is so powerful, so extravagant, just singing it gives the back thoughts.
Do I really want Him to ruin my life? My life's great. It's fun. I love my friends, family, parties.One day, I want to be said "Well done, Good and Faithful Servant"
Not, "What have you done servant?"


I have discipleship every Friday basically after school. It's a Friday. I wanna go play Ping-pong, run, eat, hang out of with friends. But instead, I go to discipleship? Just sit there, talk about my PDA, my struggles, my life, then learn a lesson. That's it?
Song "Ruin my life" comes up every time I become selfish in thought and in desires.
That's not it. There's a point to it. Hard for me to understand since I am immature, but I can grow slowly through the patience and quietness I have throughout my life.


One of the verses I've memorized:

"But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. Against such things there are no law. Those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the flesh with it's passion and desires. Since we live by the Spirit, let us keep in step with the Spirit. Let us not become conceited, provoking and envying each other." Galatians 5:22-26


Those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the flesh with it's passion and desires.


Destroying sin, with it's passion and desires. Is that even possible? Got me thinking, and it reminded me another verse I memorized:


"It is for freedom, that Christ has set us free. Stand firm, then, and do let yourselves be burdened again by the yoke of slavery." Galatians 5:1


Freedom from sin. Something I long for.